Currently Listening Ska Bonanza: The Studio One Ska Years By Various Artists see related

My Winter Statement:

Here we are again, another winter season upon us. Hard to believe its mid January. Seems like Christmas and New Years just flew right by. And whats with all this warm weather? Can't say the weather has been too good for skiing and boarding season. In fact I've worked once at Ski Liberty since opening day.....

My current mood is sort of affecting my abitilty to enjoy writting. Part of me wants to say so much here, yet another part of me wants to go run and hide in the words of others by delving into one of the many books I've bought lately. Winter break so far has been really mediocre. Slowly I've said farewell to all my friends heading back to other universities that are not fortunate enough to have a long boring minimester like Towson. Some good times were had though, I can't ignore all the enjoyment I had hanging out with the CHS crew. But now everyone is back to their routines and I'm trying to find one for myself to fall into. There is plenty I need to do, and plenty I would like to do. Practicing would be good, and I'm trying to get excited about doing that. As usual I've found some topics of interest that I am currently looking into. I've recently been researching the Super Carburetor some more. I really hope to purchase some sort of assembly manual before the summertime so I can attempt to build one of these for my car and see if 200mpg is a reality. Along the lines of science I am quite fascinated with the work of Nikola Tesla, I mean who isn't? The man was a brilliant mind who did so much for the field of electrical engineering. Musically I've stumbled upon the some early ska music, particularly the group "The Skatalites". The music is absolutely amazing. And last but not least I've developed a strong interest in the work of Garrison Keillor, a writter, humorist, and musician who hosts the radio program "A Prairie Home Companion. Keillor is awesome and so is the radio show.....

Kind of hard to believe I am actually updating...wow!

Its been some time since I last stopped by here, but hey I've been busy. So busy in fact its quite insane. I think if I didn't sleep I could get more done, but as I proved last Friday night, sleep is essential. Working on music all night and then playing it the next day somehow doesn't make the music as good, or maybe the music was good but I was too zoned to even know I was playing....anywho. So last weekend was insane. Friday, got home around 11pm, set up for the TUMC retreat, stayed up all night working out music, good times. Saturday I played all this music in the morning, then departed the retreat to drive to a Promise Band gig in Keedysville. Somehow this ended up being the best part of the weekend. I was dead tired, had no sleep, yet I was so happy to take a little nap before the gig in the bed of my truck out in the sunshine, nothing like a mid-fall afternoon in the country laying out under a blue afternoon sky. Playing with the band again was great. There is also nothing that compares to going out to these country churches, setting up sound, having a nice country dinner with fellow band mates and new friends, and then ending with a concert. As we played I could feel the magic that was lost over the summer. Somehow the joy of the band had slipped away and Saturday it was back. I left that evening very pleased with the way everything had gone, but saddened that I really cannot be around for more Promise Band gigs. After making the drive back over the mountain I finally got some sleep. It felt good to be home as well. Even though I had to sleep on the floor with no mattress I was content. Sunday morning I headed back up to the TUMC retreat for Sunday service. We had a larger praise team than I thought. Myself, the Jim's, and some of the Rock singers played with us. Its such a good feeling as a sound man when you get the sound right, you know its right, and you also know when you walk away from the board to play that its going to sound good while you are playing. Sunday morning was great and the worship we experienced was incredible. I left with a tired feeling of contentment and started making my way back to TU where life again would get busy. What a weekend.....

You see the thing is I'm afraid. I'm afraid that this time is going to break me, that this time will be it. If you saw me, that is the me I want you to see, would it matter? If I was me, the me I want to be, would you see? And would I be the me you need me to be? So many words stay in, they attempt to escape but are lost in the moment that fades too quickly. Wasted minutes fly away and I am left in the wake of your presence fading slowly. Strange is the season, would it be stranger if we were together? Hard to fathom the light in your eyes starring back into mine, holding your every dream in my hand. To feel your breath, to hear your voice, to see you smile a smile of hopefulness. The first kiss on the hand, then the cheek, and one day looking in your eyes it happens, the moment when time stops and the universe unfolds itself and you and I are alone. Together on a crowded street full of people, a loud concert, or a 4th of July celebration. The music stops, the noise fades, people quiet. I take your hand and place it in mine, and our lips meet and we know we are forever meant to be as one, you and I - lg                                         

Occupational guidance counselor!!!!!

I think that must have been one of the funniest episodes of Monty Python I have ever seen. This occupational guidance counselor sketch beggining with this ridiculous harmonizing. Anyway Summer is moving along, almost time for school to start again. Moving into my new apartment on the 4th, heading to the beach on the 29th. Good times. Not the show but the times we will have at Ocean City will be Good Times. So I've been working like mad, either wiring things at Scalese Bob's or sitting by the pool, or better yet diving in the pool and pulling my boss out on a backboard....Gotta love audits! Not playing too much music these days. Hopefully soon I can get Jim and Angus together to put some more music to Jim's and my lyrics. The first few are good, even if they are "grunge music"....please!!!! Its rock music people, grunge??? Ok whatever, maybe I will play some of these on the boardwalk. Just sitting here learning "Atlantic City" by Springsteen, great boardwalk song....If I was in New Jersey maybe, but regardless. Dave will be back at some point to go to the Benji's Drive In, and Orioles next Friday with the partial crew. Mroe good times to come before band camp, and the two weeks of solid work I am doing right before, : ( Alright time to get some sleep, that's about it for now   

ok, so to those who say to me "you never update that thing where you write about stuff", this is for you....

So Summer is moving along pretty fast, its almost July already. Lots of good times are going down. Went to the OC Maryland last week for a few days with the guys. In a nutshell we arrived, beached, killed a cell phone, watched soccer, played put-put, boardwalked, watched soccer, convinced a policeman that we in fact only had 4 occupants in our room, stayed up late, got up late, watched soccer, watched it rain, watched more soccer and more rain, went to Walmart....you guessed it, more soccer, saw The Posideon, had dinner, followed a van full of mean people and avenged the splashing of innocent bystanders by way of asult with a pepsi can, boardwalked, entertained crowds of crazy people with crazy music and guitars, met random people, stayed up late, got up late, had a muffin...came home....Ahh the OC! So in addition to other short excursions and work not too terribly much else had been happening. Went to Fells Point with Dave to see Eric Schnieders bands last night and then stayed with my Great Aunt in Highlandtown, ahh old Highlandtown. So now its off to work, pretty typical. I am hoping for rain.....

And now just a quick word about the usual....So I had this great idea about a topic to delve into and as it goes now I cannot seem to dredge up the wonderful statement I had prepared. Ok, so, I've said before, why do I need to be in a relationship? The answer....I don't! Obviously if I really wanted a relationship I could be in one because I've had some offers, but none that I've taken. What is the deal? Its like I want to seek out someone who has no interest in me when meanwhile I've got a few someones maybe interested and I'm not even bothering. I'm afraid I like the chase but when it all starts to happen I chicken out. I want to say "hey, if its the one I really want I'll be ready". But its not even about me, its about God, and its about the girl! lets not forget about her, she is the one who has to chose to be with me. I mean now lets hold up. I'm 21 going on 22, and I really don't need a relationship. Not like I am going out seeking girls, in fact I avoid a lot of them usually. Its hard to become friends with a girl sometimes without allowing for other thoughts to occur, though its entirely plausible to be friends! I think what all this has to do with is someone I cannot seem to get out of my mind. Call me crazy, but sometimes you just know. Sometimes you just meet someone and the world stops turning and its just you and her, face to face, and she is the most amazing person you've ever encountered. And what happens? You screw up and you regret it. I could be wrong, but I don't think so. I crossed paths with someone wonderful , and for a moment my world stopped.....

I'll just stop it right there and go to work, stayed tuned for other great xanga segments like "Its Friday and I have to work" and the ever popular "Please rain now"

Currently Listening We Shall Overcome: The Seeger Sessions By Bruce Springsteen see related

So, summer be here.....And its off to an interesting start. Spent the better part of two weeks just trying to organize my stuff around the house, getting ready for a semi-more-permanent apartment situation at Deertree next semester. Haven't lifeguarded too much, not many hours for people apparently. So next week I'll likely being looking for job #2, either waiting tables or working alongside those pesky immigrants landscaping or something, who knows! Promise band has been playing a lot, which is good cause we've been shifting to a more rock oriented style of music. Hopefully a Promise Band website will be up and running soon. But these days lately are filled with music, movies, driving around, late nights, etc....OH! did a 25 mile + bike ride with Dave last week, his place to Taneytown Sheetz! Might need to do another of those soon, so fun. Next Saturday I'll run in the FMH race for Leukemia, should feel good to race again. Hopefully going to the OC with the guys soon, and likely many more little short excursions are to come, long as I make some money soon : / ........Well, I suppose its back to an exciting rainy Saturday, just a' workin' around the place

"The first time I saw you I knew you were special. I can still see you smiling, its the most beautiful sight. Someday soon our paths will cross again, and I wait for that day with the hope that you will show me all of you, and I can show you all of me"